Hello everyone and welcome back to the blog! I feel like so much has happened in so little time I’m not sure just where to begin. You all know how blogging is in that you have times that are tuned in and always writing and then there are times you are just distracted by life and all that it throws at you! Recently I have been dealing with my share of life’s curve balls but I am learning a lot about myself and my strengths and weakness. Anyway today I thought I would catch up with everyone and let you all in on what’s been going on with me and the fam! Let’s get it!
I noticed that anytime I endure anything financial or personal I simply think about it so much that it consumes me to the point that it literally freezes everything else in its tracks and I am no good in all the other areas. Case in point we ahve been dealing with some financial things and then we hit a snag with my truck breaking down. Now truck and vehicle problems happen to all of us but when your ability to make money or generate a small sense of financial security is halted it puts a real strain on things! While we deal with the truck we realized that we have not been handling money like adults should but rather as kids handle it. Spending money on food we shouldn’t eat and things that are just not very important because they are easier than being financially responsible.
For me, dealing with obesity all roads lead back to eating in ways I no longer wish to eat but have long been established in my mind as tried and true was to deal with my issues. One of the reasons I struggle with obesity is that it was easier than facing or changing my behavior that directly affected the problem at hand. To take it a step further when you don’t even know how to deal with the problem you are twice defeated. I eat the foods that are slowly killing me while also skillfully dodging the tools that will help me solve the problems at hand. Learning those money problems are not always necessarily food problems is a big one for me. I have learned to eat the way in which makes my body feel free and happy and now that there is some troubled water it’s my nature to go back to what I have always done which is eat the stress away. We all know that it doesn’t really go away it’s just grown into stress with a growing gut to match.lol
I’m writing this today because I have recognized the signs of the beginning of a spiral and I am struggling to do differently that which I have previously done. This blog has always helped me stay focused on that which I have tried to accomplish. Which leads me to another thing if I don’t feel right I typically don’t blog regularly and that’s something I have recently discovered about myself. I’ve also noticed that meditation and strength training has also suffered anytime I’m dealing with a situation I find stressful. There’s something powerful about controlling your actions in a time of crisis that I have yet to master but I am truly working on it!
On the eating front, it hasn’t been really bad just not what I would like and I’m aware that my low carb lifestyle needs to continue because it makes me feel healthier and puts my body in a certain state of satisfaction I’ve never had. The money situation has gotten me eating cheap processed foods just to save money and using that as an excuse to eat crap. I have eaten more bad carbs the last 2 weeks then in the past year, I think.lol. That certainly has to end because I don’t want to go back to eating the way I did and dealing with the aches and the pains of starting from scratch! Knowing what to do is only the first step an even bigger step is using the knowledge of awareness plus that knowing and applying it to the current situation! That is what I have decided to do and until I find my way out if this situation I know I need a plan and a routine!
The plan is to work smarter and certainly work a little harder to stay focused and on track. First, I have decided to get back to meditation and cleansing my mind with the word of god and prayer. Getting back to listening to my favorite podcast and motivational speakers and also getting back to helping others! The worst thing about dealing with problems is they often make us feel like we can’t help other people because we need help ourselves and that’s just not the case and I believe that! The best way I have ever found to stay healthy and happy is by being of service to others and it truly does change the outline of my life and I vow to get back to that!
More rest! I’m not sure why but I tend to sleep horribly when I’m troubled but I don’t really have bad dreams I just can’t really get that sound sleep and I think it’s because I got away from my routine of going to bed and slowly unwinding and then falling off to a sound sleep. In short, the programming that I have designed has gone to shit.lol. Bad data and horrible programming will get me every single time! That I know for sure because I am a planner and without a plan, I am a wreck waiting to happen. So this week I will be getting my plan back together with diet, workout and mental exercises!
We all stumble and fall we just aren’t allowed to not get up and dust the sand from our garments and continue the Marathon! I pray that whatever you are going thru and whatever you are doing that you continue to be honest with yourself because self-love starts with self-honesty! Sometimes you have to call bullshit on your self, that’s just the way it is and If you are CHANGE like I am you have to fall forward because it’s all you have sometimes! I love you all so much and as always I am here for anyone who needs me! Have a wonderful day!